Thursday, February 11, 2016

COME, SEE A MAN !... "1,500 Miles"

I don't recall how I got there but no doubt it was serious. A PIC line was inserted as I was interrogated about my I.V. drug use... and an emergency surgery was on the way.

That massive over dose, that killed me, had blown my Gall Bladder... which may explain the black stuff draining from my nose and mouth at the time of death... and my Liver was failing fast.

While waiting for Anesthesia, I recall a brief surprise visit from dad. I was stunned to see him after all these years and sadly I haven't seen him since that moment in 2004. I still don't know how he knew I was in crisis, where I was, and so on, but nevertheless... there he was!

Then, I remember waking up with tubes in my nose (and mouth?) and trying to pull them out. To my right an older woman sat in a chair, smiled and gently pulled my hands away from the tubes. She didn't speak... and I couldn't talk... but remember thinking she was an angel.

She was always there when I opened my eyes, glancing from her book through glasses and watching over me. Then... one day... she was gone.

I'll never forget her face and her kindness. And her gentleness. It was something I had never experienced before. The comfort of just being sat with, watched over, accompanied without requirement... and cared for... it was, to me, was amazing.

Upon discharge my body felt lifeless. Terribly weak I could still barely walk and was so thankful for the wheelchair as we headed for the lobby. As we rolled toward the exit doors another woman caught my eye. She passed right by us, only heading IN... and definitely looking like she was on a mission.

And seeing her for that split second... well, it was as if time stopped. She walked on, but passing us in what seemed like slow motion... and then the moment was over. So I thought.

Now I don't know how long but guessing within weeks the boyfriend and I were on the road, leaving everything and everyone behind. As one can guess, many things led up to this fast departure but since my mind was still so fuzzy and my body so wore down I simply accepted the trip.

And naturally I was ordered to drive the entire 1,500 miles...

In an old 1993 Ford F-150 pick up that had only 1 side view mirror, NO rear view mirror, a cracked windshield, a rusted out LEAKING gas tank (and yes, we smoked cigarettes), NO rear window (knocked out in South Carolina when a "brother" of the boyfriend jumped in the truck and deliberately ran the boyfriend over while a junk refrigerator was standing upright in the truck bed... and yes, I saw it all) and 4 bad tires (including a tire with ALL lug nuts MISSING... but 1... which was only discovered in Pensacola, Florida)...

Because the boyfriend had NO driver's license and needed to drink his beer.

Now tell me God didn't have His hand on THIS trip!

Finally stopping at a Pensacola McDonalds, with no clue which direction to travel from there, the boyfriend looked at me and said... "Hallie. It's time to serve God..."

Hmm hmm. That's right. It's true.

Stunned... all I could do was stare at him and I KNOW my jaw hit my lap. But... something was different. It was as if a giant spotlight was switched on and shining right on the truck. I looked around and saw such brightness everywhere! And moreover... the voice I heard was NOT the voice I knew to come from THIS man. THIS man... my boyfriend... in the truck with me... did NOT speak that way... those words... or even think those thoughts. And he certainly gave no indication of EVER living a "religious" life.

Needles to say, still shocked and amazed... I answered with a slight grin (and caution) "O...kaaay..." And truly I can say... it was my first glimpse into the eyes of Hope. Something was different about this moment. It wasn't about the boyfriend... or even me... but about something more. Something bigger than I could have ever imagined. THIS trip... was the beginning of a journey that would be unlike any other.

ACTS 26:13-18 ~  

13  At midday, O king, I saw in the way a light from heaven, above the brightness of the sun, shining round about me and them which journeyed with me. 

14  And when we were all fallen to the earth, I heard a voice speaking unto me, and saying in the Hebrew tongue, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks.

15  And I said, Who art thou, Lord? And he said, I am Jesus whom thou persecutest. 

16 But rise, and stand upon thy feet: for I have appeared unto thee for this purpose, to make thee a minister and a witness both of these things which thou hast seen, and of those things in the which I will appear unto thee; 

17  Delivering thee from the people, and from the Gentiles, unto whom now I send thee, 

18  To open their eyes, and to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan unto God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins, and inheritance among them which are sanctified by faith that is in me.

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